Not Better, Not Yet Worse-Monday, Mar. 08, 2004 @ 1:45 p.m.

I want to say I'm doing better than I was 11 hours ago, but I know I'm not. Not really. I'm just avoiding it. I don't think about it. I push it aside and trick myself into thinking today will better, when in reality it will only be worse because not only is my past pain still welling up inside me, but I'll add all the shit of today to it and it'll all just get worse and worse.

Let's not think about it. I'll think about it tomorrow....

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