hey mary, here�s an idea: suck it up. get over it. move on.
the first step is to clean my fucking room, because it�s a huge mess right now.
what to do about the married stalker? i just wish he�d go away. he�s so fucking creepy. and in an effort to avoid him even longer, i just did something i never do. i turned off my cell phone. he called a few minutes ago and left a message wondering if i wanted a ride to work.
HAHA... NO, man, i�m not even considering getting into a car with you. i don�t even want to be near you at work because you creep me the hell out.
but i know i need to talk to him. and i suppose since we�re working together all night tonight, i�ll do it then. and hopefully he�ll just leave me alone. if not, my brother�s already promised to beat him up for me. which he actually won�t do, but it�s good to know i�ve got someone who�s got my back and he�ll at least give married man a few nasty glances.
but really, i just want all this to be over. i don�t want anything to with him. i feel so betrayed in a way. because he and i were friends, work friends. when we were at work we were friends. but i had no interest in him outside of work. we have two completely different lifestyles, mainly the fact that he�s married. and please let me reiterate, i�m not attracted to him at all. i remember a few months ago at one point he tried to kiss me. i thought he was joking at that point, but now after finding all this out, i realize he really intended to do it. but, finding out that he thinks he�s in love with me... damn him. i told him things that i would have never told him had i known all this. it�s like finding out your gay best friend isn�t gay and actually has a crush on you.
grrrrrrr......
but i�ll deal with it. i will i will i will.
but i don�t want to. just want to run away!!!!